Indescribable...
These emotions are undescribable
I am full of it and yet my heart is desolate
Empty of feeling, yet full of desire
Confusion and misunderstanding
Low self asteem and not sure of mental being
Underestimated yet overated
Customized and shoved into a box
Innocently being shaped into...
Me.
All the negativity and doubt is only making me stronger
My enemies and frenemies are only becoming wronger
...About who I am and who I will be
As each day goes by
I am transforming
Translating to a new demension
I'm about to be on a mission
I'm traveling down a road less traveled
But I have finally come to a fork in the road
I must choose wich way I will go
My destiny depends on the road i choose
Either I will win, or I will loose
My art is hidden deep within my heart
I am a stubborn weed rising through the concrete
My feet are steady climbing the ladder of success
Soon I'll be rockin the night away as an elite
Passin chances will be a thing of the past
Shoot, life goin by so fast
Forgettin things of old, lookin forward to the things of new
I've had memorable moments, but there bout to be added to
This time is rough, remaining undefined
Fighting against time n temptation,
Unsure of the next destination
So for now I'll just keep runnin
I promise mann, some day I'll be stunnin
Stuntin on all dem... trippin n sippin on wat dey wish waz kool-aide
When really deep down they just ah-fraid
Cuz they dont realize
And an even I
Forget the true value of this
This gift, that my G.o.d has given me
This blessing that is so undeserved
Still I am forever grateful
Cuz the day which I recieved
It was so amazing
More real than real, it was life changing
From that moment to this moment
And from this moment to the next
I will persevere through every test
Won't settle for less than the best
No telling what tomorrow has in store for me
Best believe that the best is yet to come
Slowly but surely this heavy weight is bein lifted
My stumblin blocks are finally bein shifted
Out of my way, finally I have a say
Cuz I gotta ah dream thats sky high
Got wings but can't fly
If livin aint livin then livin is dyin
That's my reason to keep on tryin
Cuz though the end is near, the end is not yet here
So with every minute thats left, and with every breath
I'mah reach towards the skies and stick my nose between the cloads
Cuz what my G.O.D has for me, it is for me
And that wat is meant to be it will be
Now that I have reached the conclusion of this poem
It is now time to take a deep breath, of realief
Cuz this battle is nolonger mines.
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Breaking Through ~ This is something that I do whenever times get tough.
For me, there are only five steps to breaking through. Whenever I become
stressed, overwhelmed with emotion, or even depressed I take 5 steps
to overcome the situation, whatever it may be. Sometimes things
happen, and I don't know how to handle the situation, without getting all
bent out of shape. So I'm left with no choice but to break through.
The first step is to acknowledge the problem. Who/What is it that is causing me
the trouble? I can't cover up, ignore, or avoid/hide anything. 2nd, I have to ask
myself this; How do I honestly feel about this? Not... How do I wish I felt, or how
I want to feel. But how do I really feel about this? 3rd, I ask myself, What should
I do about this? I give my self time and space to calm down, think things through,
and somehow let out the stress... Either by writing, singing (this is just what
I do), or talking to someone about how I feel. People always say that it's not good
to always hide your emotions, keeping them to yourself.I've found that out the hard way.
4rth, I re-analyze the situation and then I search for something positive to focus on.
Only in that situation though. No matter how negative something may seem, theres
got to be at least one thing that is positive, worth fighting for. Keeping a positive
attitude is always the way to go. For the longest I have let people walk over me,
and I've let the the thoughts and opinions of others control me. That
has thrown me on some pretty wild emotional roller coaster rides in the
past. But I have made up my mind to change that. To stop living up to
other peoples expectations, and to follow my heart, and acheive my
dreams, not theirs. The 5th thing is to let it go. Whatever it is, hang on
to that one thing that is positive, and keep going. Not let that
situation get me down. That's why it's called breaking through. Cuz I'm
breaking through to the other side. No longer am I being held back by
the things that overtake me. I have to believe that, I deserve to be happy
in this sometimes "difficult" life. Life isn't always that bad... But it's not
always the best either. But after breaking through, I can finally say:
"Slowly but surely this heavy weight is bein lifted,My stumblin blocks
are finally bein shifted, out of my way..."
I know some people that don't know how to break through... Instead, they
have to go cuss somebody out, or go smoke ah joint n get to ah high, before
they feel released... But seriously, I don't do neither one of those things, I've
found a better way to handle 'tough stuff'... by Breaking through. Just think
about it. When you cuss somebody out, your only cursing yourself. That's not
making the situation any better... honest. And smoking a joint... Well the
problem will still be there when you get down. Instead of looking for comfort,
how about breaking through?
-Kizzy (Floetic Soul)©
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